Struggling
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The author reflects on the challenges of their tumultuous relationship with their alcoholic son, marked by cycles of co-dependence and toxicity. They made the difficult decision to stop enabling their son, resulting in deep fears about losing their grandchildren. Struggling with grief, especially after the loss of another child, the author grapples with feelings of…
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The author reflects on the emotional and mental challenges of revisiting past trauma through their public blog. Despite reluctance, they recognize the need for healing. Facing the discomfort and embracing the process becomes essential, symbolized by “eating the elephant one bite at a time.” The journey of self-discovery and acceptance continues.
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The author reflects on their struggle with intrusive thoughts that dominate their mind, leading to frustration and anger. They emphasize the realization that “I am not my thoughts,” and explore mindfulness and breathing techniques as methods to regain control. By acknowledging and naming disruptive thoughts, they work towards transforming the mind from a master to…
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The author reflects on a painful wedding day marred by their partner’s alcoholism. Despite requesting sobriety, the groom drank before the ceremony and spent the day ignoring the bride’s emotional needs. The author grapples with feelings of regret and self-blame, yet recognizes the importance of self-compassion. A symbolic act of discarding wedding rings signifies moving…
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The author processes a past incident, where she contemplates calling the police after being assaulted by her brother-in-law. Her mother convinces her not to. She feels betrayed by her husband’s lack of support and his family’s dismissal of the incident. Writing about her experience brings her some relief and clarity, and she hopes to move…
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The author expresses anguish over their ex’s lack of transparency regarding major life changes and the impending end of their marriage. The ex’s nonchalant attitude and lack of remorse deepen the author’s pain, but they still hope for a compassionate outcome for the grandchildren. Despite trying to move on, they struggle to extinguish all hope.
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The author grapples with conflicting emotions after a call from their ex, feeling momentary happiness despite recognizing the futility of hoping for change. They acknowledge a need for independence and self-reflection, likening their attachment to an addiction. Determined to move forward, they commit to gradual healing and achieving inner peace.
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The Memory Mansion is Empty: What 20 Years of Narcissistic Abuse Steals

The author explores a technique called Memory Mansion, designed to enhance mental health by associating positive memories with imagined or real rooms. However, they struggle to recall purely happy memories, revealing feelings of anxiety and sadness. They express a desire for “unadulterated joy” and hope that by addressing past traumas, they can create space for…
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Childhood Trauma Impact: My Struggle with Past Demons and Emotional Turmoil
abuse, Addiction, Anxiety, Childhood Trauma, Dating, Family, grief, Healthy Boundaries, loneliness, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, regret, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Release, Self Healing, Strugglingabandonment, abuse, belief, boundaries, childhood, confidence, confusion, courage, evolution, fear, healing, hope, inner child, lies, loss, love, memories, past, realisation, self worth, The Vow, trauma, truth, withdrawal
The author reflects on childhood trauma stemming from familial relationships, particularly feelings of rejection from parental figures after the birth of a younger sibling. Experiences of manipulation and emotional neglect led to behavior issues, resulting in therapy at a young age. These unresolved feelings manifest in adult relationships, where fear of abandonment drives unhealthy patterns.…
