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Embracing Honesty: My Journey of Healing
abuse, Addiction, Artistic Creations, calm, Dating, Family, Friends, garden, Healthy Boundaries, Interests, Joy, Letting Go, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, mindfulness, Music, nature, Psychedelics, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Release, Self Healing, sex, Therapy, travel, Writing
The author reflects on the decision to share personal journals publicly through blogging, inspired by Sarah Millican’s autobiographical book. Writing helps process their journey through divorce and healing, including controversial topics like psilocybin use. They emphasize honesty and vulnerability, hoping to aid others by sharing their truth. Despite concerns about judgment, the author prioritizes authenticity…
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Pivotal Moments TRIGGER WARNING – Includes discussion of sexual assaults, abuse, family breakdown, criminal behaviour and homelessness. 30/06/24 By the time I reached fifteen years old, my relationship with mother and her husband (Rassgat) had utterly broken down. She’d long since made it clear to me that she valued her relationship with him more than…
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The author navigates a challenging breakup, realizing their ex-husband’s lack of consideration and manipulative behavior. They seek support from a loyal friend, finding solace in her understanding and validation of their feelings. The experience leads to self-realization and a step toward healing, as they acknowledge the importance of prioritizing their own well-being.
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Dealing with Family Dynamics: Understanding, Coping, and Healing

The post reflects on familial dysfunction and the challenges of navigating relationships shaped by childhood dynamics. The author realizes that familial interactions are often rigid and transactional, leading to emotional distance. Despite deep love, family gatherings are awkward, and informal communication is rare. As the author works on personal growth and setting boundaries, they strive…
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The Memory Mansion is Empty: What 20 Years of Narcissistic Abuse Steals

The author explores a technique called Memory Mansion, designed to enhance mental health by associating positive memories with imagined or real rooms. However, they struggle to recall purely happy memories, revealing feelings of anxiety and sadness. They express a desire for “unadulterated joy” and hope that by addressing past traumas, they can create space for…
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Understanding Communication Patterns in Relationships
abuse, Addiction, Anxiety, calm, Childhood Trauma, Family, Friends, grief, Healthy Boundaries, Letting Go, loneliness, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, mindfulness, Physical Health And Appearance, Physical Stress Responses, regret, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Release, Self Healing, Therapyabandonment, abuse, belief, boundaries, change, control, courage, detachment, evolution, exhausted, fear, glimmer, grief, guilt, healing, hope, lies, loneliness, loss, love addiction, marriage, past, patterns, puking, realisation, reclaiming, relationship, self help, self image, self worth, separation, stress, The Vow, time, truth, vulnerability, withdrawal
In reflecting on past relationships, the author recognizes two key issues: communication and control. They often dismissed others’ feelings, seeking approval rather than understanding. Additionally, a desire for control stemmed from internal chaos, particularly during their marriage. Realizations include the need for open dialogue and healthy boundaries, leading to personal growth and the practice of…
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Breaking the Cycle of Emotional Pain

The author reflects on a life filled with trauma, including an abusive childhood, homelessness, and personal losses. They grapple with feelings of self-blame and worthlessness, questioning whether they are truly “rotten to the core.” Despite the pain, they long to shed these beliefs but struggle to find a path forward, yearning for therapeutic support.
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Facing Inner Truths: Overcoming Past Trauma
abuse, Addiction, anger, Anxiety, Childhood Trauma, Family, Friends, grief, Healthy Boundaries, Letting Go, loneliness, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, mindfulness, Physical Health And Appearance, Physical Stress Responses, regret, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Release, Self Healing, Struggling, Therapyabandonment, abuse, anger, belief, change, conquering, courage, evolution, glimmer, help, lies, loneliness, loss, past, patterns, reality, reclaiming, self help, self image, self talk, self worth, stress, trauma, truth
The author reflects on their journey through trauma, highlighting a stark contrast between their public persona as a strong, resilient individual and the inner struggles they face due to past abuse and hardships. Despite achievements like winning legal battles and awards, internal dialogues often minimize their strength. They recognize the need for personal growth and…
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Feeling Trapped: Coping with Heartbreak and Wishing to Start Afresh
Addiction, Anxiety, Family, Friends, grief, Interests, loneliness, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, regret, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Struggling, travelabandonment, change, despair, fear, glimmer, grief, healing, heartbreak, loneliness, love addiction, marriage, no plan, past, puking, reality, stress, trapped, travel, truth, withdrawal
The writer expresses profound feelings of entrapment and despair after being abandoned by their partner. Despite longing for escape, they grapple with the reality of their financial limitations and emotional turmoil. The home feels hollow, memories weigh heavily, and the hope for reconciliation seems distant. Ultimately, the writer acknowledges that running away won’t erase their…
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Microdosing Psilocybin for Mental Health: A Personal Journey
abuse, Addiction, Anxiety, Childhood Trauma, Family, Friends, grief, Healthy Boundaries, Letting Go, loneliness, Marriage & Divorce, Mental Health, mindfulness, Physical Health And Appearance, Physical Stress Responses, Psychedelics, regret, Relationship Styles And Behaviour, relationships, Release, Self Healing, sex, Struggling, Therapy
The author shares a personal journey regarding microdosing psilocybin as a potential therapeutic aid for mental health issues. After extensive research, they express a commitment to explore this method, believing it may assist in overcoming personal challenges. Despite concerns about expecting too much from the mushrooms, the author remains hopeful for healing, emphasizing the importance…