A Spiritual Moment With Avicii

03/08/24

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I’m in a very odd emotional place at the moment, almost certainly due to my work with psilocybin truffles.

I found myself brought to tears by Avicii’s Hey Brother today.

It was the lyrics that did it and for the life of me I can’t adequately explain the feelings that coursed through me.

I’d taken a low truffle dose (above micro, but below full trip) and had been bouncing around, with my happy playlist on, doing the decorating. When my list ended, the platform I use helpfully started playing tracks it thought I might like.

Up popped Avicii.

I heard the opening line, “Hey Brother, there’s an endless road to rediscover“, and just started to cry.

It was weird – the hope being offered out in that sentence just hit something inside me. It’s not like the crying was sad – more relief?

The crying increased with the lines, “Oh, if the sky comes falling down, for you, there’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do“.

I’m not going to go through every single line, but throughout I was totally engulfed by this sense of connection. Like these words, this track, this artist had put positive, loving, supportive energy into the world, and I was tapping into it.

I did say I’d struggle to describe this!

That sense of connection with a universal network of love was most profound with the lines: “What if I’m far from home? Oh brother I will hear you call. What if I lose it all? Oh Sister, I will help you out.”

Given the unexpected end of my marriage at the start of the year, plus the impending likelihood of estrangement from my alcoholic son and my grandchildren, I resonated with the ‘losing it all’.

And of course, I’m planning to travel, so the ‘far from home’ part felt meaningful too.

After softly crying all the way through the first listen, I put the track on repeat. This time it was as if a chunk of loneliness had been dissolved, and I was filled with this gorgeous golden, glowing, happy, safe feeling.

D’ you know, I think I had a spiritual moment with Avicii.

What fun!

MUSIC OF THE DAY: Hey Brother – Avicii

JP